Thanks for relinking dearies ((:
Chinese oral today . Omg , i totally coldn't speak but i managed t read some difficult words but still got it wrong in th end D: . Nevermind . Might just fail it . First time :O ! Th picture conversation is like , tootally don't know what t say at all ? I didn't have much comments , or rather i have , but didn't know how t translate it in chinese . I can speak chinese , when i talk rubbish (: . When it comes t oral and stuff , my mind just go blank . I kept ER . . er . . :X ! Plus my anxiety made things worst and i don't know why i couldn't stop smiling at th teacher and giggling t myself -.- . OMG . I think he tinks i'm crazy or something .
Skip t th real important part . I had my oral there and then . I didn't expect it . Damn suay sia . It was in his class , THAT class ! I was shocked like anything . At first i thought it ws all a mistake or sommething , I thought it will not happen . But yes , everything happened there and then which i think gave me th biggest shock in my life . I couldn't believe it , really . Was complaining t shery all th way til her turn and i was trying t distract myself from being nervous because i can't believe he's in there . OMG . I really felt like running out from th class at that moment , just straight , OUT . Plus my stomach felt like it was having th runs . I couldn't stand that feeling of being so damn nervous lah . Yes , got disturbed by him and him only -.- . I wasn't really happy with it but i still smiled . Why , why so insensitive t my feelings ? Why must do this ? I don't understand . it's you whom i don't understand already . I never understand you ever since th day you treated me like a piece of shit in your damn arse . Everything was fine . I really got angry i slam th door hard , i tried t . But i don't think you get it . Then , i was at hm thinking of th sweet sweet time before , and you text me . Was glaad cause your pic appeared . My mood totally changed when i read it . What th fxck ! Then we started sms war . And yes , it was real war . You have never used that kind of tone on me , never . Then i saw your true colours . You rather believe your classmates , classmates who talked shit about me t you . You never trusted me . At th end , i settled things with your classmate , finding out th truth and everything that your another classmate had bombed words out from MY DAMN MOUTH . I told you , you knew it was all a misunderstanding . But , you still so stubborn . You wouldn't give way . You make me sound such a bitch , you made me sound like a cbk . Really , it wasn't my fault at all . It was your classmate's fault and yours , for Maligning ME . What did i do in th first place and deserved all these crap from you and you ? You said i was stupid , stupid for liking you . Stupid as i have a choice not to . Yes , now i know that's what you think after everything i did and committed for you . I find myself reaaal stupiddd . But you're too (: . Next time don't make promises when you can't fulfil it lah , better still don't even start making promises and bullshitting like nobody's business . Empty promises again and again , i've seen enough . Please , do i really deserve all these or not ? Especially , from someone like you ? _I_
