i.r.e.d ;
Totally sucks. I mean like why people nvr realise th importance of something until it is gone? Everyone is like this, even me, myself and i. Why must it be like this? Why can't th world just be like, p.e.r.f.e.c.t? Wouldn't life be better for everyone. Don't freaking toy me, i guess i don't need you right back here now. I don't wish to return to th past. And i really mean past, because everything ended like real long ago. It is no longer with you anymore because someone who is times better, filled that position. I am so sorry.
I really don't freaking wish to return to sch. It is because i hate to see th wrong things and i really hate it when false hopes cling onto me real tightly. Fuck it seriously. I no longer can do anything. People said i should start with th pawns on th chessboard. Th problem is that my courage is failing me. I know longer can type what i used to in th msg, even if i started. It is because th whole scenerio is totally different! Therefore, it is not th same anymore?! Thus i can only let nature takes its course and wait for th sky to freaking fall down to earth.
&, ever heard being left out in f a m i l y ? I swear th feeling sucks. I am unhappy of many things i'm seeing now and then. I feel so detached. Th warmth is so not there. I hate it. Real much.
Sometimes i really know why i have become like that. Perhaps family plays a big role in it. Credits goes to it..
Sch fr me, 2reasons:
- I don't wanna miss out on any lessons because it'll be hard to catch up when i return. I study fr th sake of it. I have found a lost in interest currently.
- That reason.. although i hate myself for being stupid.
Perhaps everything will be better if you're here.
我真的很累。
Gdnight.
